Heyyy, it’s your girl Kenz!!!
Wow, I hope you feel the energy in this post, because it’s. About. To. Get. REAL.
Experiencing God is the coolest thing ever & gets me so pumped! I am so excited to share, yet another testimony of God showing up to me during worship at Training Camp (TC)… And let me tell ya, you will NOT want to miss this!!
It was the first night of TC, or maybe the second… to be honest I don’t remember, all the days kinda just blended together! Anyway, it was one of the first nights of TC, my entire squad & all five other squads were huddled inside worshiping! Like I stated in my blog, “I needed that shower”, worship was very different than what I was used to– there was a lot more energy!! Don’t get me wrong, it was AMAZING but I was definitely overwhelmed at first. However, it did give me an opportunity to worship Him in a different way, by praying! Even though the worship was overwhelming, it did come in handy when I was praying out loud because no one could hear me.
Side note: there’s something SO powerful about talking to God out loud!
TC was jam packed with new ideas, information & just a whole lot of NEW. I was constantly processing & taking it all in. As I stood in the middle of the first or second night of worship, scatterbrained, processing & overwhelmed, I started to have a complete freak out! Like full on doubting God’s plan for my life & thinking that me being there was a big mistake. I was like “oh no God, what if this isn’t your plan for me? What if I can’t handle this?” The list went on. But then I stopped. I began talking (out loud) to God & presenting my doubt and asking for Him to speak to me very clearly, because I’m a girl who needs it to be straight up & simple. After I prayed this prayer asking Him to speak to me & let me know if this was His plan for me, I just stood there. Waiting for God to speak to me. The Band was playing. It honestly felt like I was at a concert. I was practically rumbling from the sound of the instruments.
After 10 minutes of silently waiting, the Band came to a complete stop. The whole room was completely silent and one of the worship leaders said:
“I believe there is someone in here that needs to hear this… God is not intimidated by your doubt. He’s not in heaven saying “oh no, [insert your name] is doubting me, what can I do?” God is in Heaven saying, “You got this! You are going to do this & you’re gonna do great and I’m going to be with you through it all”.
I stood there like, maybe I wasn’t praying out loud as quietly as I thought, haha 😉 No seriously, I stood there shocked at how specifically & intimately God spoke to me. It couldn’t have been any clearer. I looked up at Him & said “Alright, God. I’m doing this. I’m all in.”
Wow! Isn’t God the coolest??!!
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